“Being entirely honest with oneself is a good exercise.” ~ Sigmond Freud (The pioneer of psychoanalysis)
This is my third day of working my inner self in understanding my new life style. It is the time to Stop – Listen – Learn!! Not long ago I was moving too quickly in a rush to grow up. Mind you, I’m fifty years old and finally waking up to a new place in my life and I’m not talking about my own personal fulfillment either! I accepted my calling from God to work full-time, allowing God to use me for His purpose.
Are we on the same path here, do you see what I see? Let me share with you in what I see, “false mask society” going wrong. I am so fascinated on the challenges of life and how to discover and rewire my brain and continue to pray for strength to truly communicate with others, do outreach in my community. Most importantly is reaching out to women and children of domestic violence. The lifestyle I have is firm with my unique plans, values and goals. It’s not about boxing, fighting, martial arts, MMA or etc. That’s easy to do, anybody can punch, anybody can kick; but, where are we mentally?
“My heart rejoices in the Lord; in the Lord my horn is lifted high. My mouth boasts over my enemies, for I delight in your deliverance. There is no one holy like the Lord; there is no one besides you; there is no Rock like our God. Do not keep talking so proudly or let your mouth speak such arrogance, for the Lord is a God who knows, and by him deeds are weighed The bows of the warriors are broken, but those who stumbled are armed with strength.” (1 Samuel 2:1-4
I am beginning to challenge myself mentally and physically for a powerful zone in my life. I’d like to do my best each day to share my experiences of change and my downfalls of not giving up on this new journey that God has thrown at me as a “reality” check of my integrity. I guess what I’m saying, the time is now to find the “true me.”
Sure, I understand the mistakes and wrong road that I will be traveling on will be exit here, entrance there, go back the other way, there will be a maze, ummmm…now what? But I made this true decision to begin a journey of change, so I can lead for Christ. I do know I am a new “babe” in Christ and I do realize it’s not a playground for games; it will be a true battlefield.
As an introvert individual woman I am. I love my alone time, the solitude to feel what’s right in my heart, so once I see that maze and no way out, I must continue to walk this path see clearly of what God has called me to do.
All I know, it’s a powerful place to work on myself, my values and learn from them. Be a true leader to my community, to give back what was given to me.
This full-time job that was given to me is learning willpower, to earn a strong mind and body. So think about this question: Our Christianity, what good is it today? Please feel free to comment on life’s new challenges. Holler at me! ~Tiger Lady” 2014
“Finally, be strong in the Lord and in His mighty power. Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand.” (Ephesians 6:10-13)
Before becoming a Christian year 2005, actually May 2005. I have it here in my journal. Taking my Bible and journal every Thursday afternoon to Dairy Queen, meet with brother G. (evangelist) for Bible study. Really, I was learning and wanting to know God again. It had been so long and I was so busy with my professional boxing career that I actually was dead through my sins, foolish ways and was walking in darkness. There were things I was feeling very deeply from happiness to sadness. Was I happy with my boxing career? What was it?! brother G. (evangelist) had written a verse in my journal that says “Therefore submit to God. Resist the devil and he will flee from you. Draw near to God and He will draw near to you.” (James 4:7, 8)
The more I struggle to escape, the more I realize I was helpless. My motives were impure, my heart was unclean. My life back then was filled with selfishness. Can anyone relate what I was feeling? The day I was saved was in Sept 2004; brother G. had taken me to the Church and had baptized me, submerged in the baptismal water. I couldn’t tell you how I felt “coming up.” I wasn’t sure if I was really saved or playing head games with myself and God, just overwhelmed with life’s situation (Challenges). Because of consequences, unconfessed sin how was I to deal with It.?
“If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness. If we claim we have not sinned, we make Him out to be a liar and His word has no place in our lives.” (1 John 1:9, 10)
Today, I will leave that past buried! It is dead to me. I had said at the age of 50, there’s going to be a change, and there was. Recently, I’ve recommitted my life to Christ, going to the Church I was raised up in a Methodist. I now have a true relationship with God. I do value God today; the true goal is Respect and Honor Him. God has called me to work full-time for Him. I accepted God to work in and through me. This life I have today has changed for a serious relationship with Him. My biggest fear is losing sight of His will for me. It scares me and I admit that. It’s hard for us to admit things and not content about it, but the way we live is so far away from our intentions. It is difficult to own up to it. Would you agree?
“Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us in the heavenly realms with every spiritual blessing in Christ. For He chose us in Him before the creation of the world to be holy and blameless in His sight. In love He predestined us to be adopted as His sons through Jesus Christ, in accordance with His pleasure and will – to the praise of His glorious grace, which He has freely given us in the One He loves.” (Ephesians 1:3-6 NIV)